Publication 199
By absent-minded on
Thursday, November 15, 2001
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Maybe such a strong and definite opposition between us and the society is misleading. The world is one, but we don't live all of us in the same world, nor in the same society, nor in the same town. Schubert does not live in the same world where Hitler lives - nor, let's say, Heidegger, despite his nazist side.
On the other hand, we can not wake up one morning and say "today I will know myself and I will create my world". It doesn't happen like this, because it is not a matter of a decision, but of all thinking and doing, all inclinations, inspirations and relationships of our life. We create our world even when we don't know that we do it. When we know what we do, we simply do the same thing, but more intensely, purely and devotedly. You can not sleep as a daemon and wake up as an angel... What we call an exercise, e.g. in monasticism, it is not something that changes our nature; it just helps us to take the responsibility of ourselves and of the world we create. It helps us to know our will and not to change our will. This is how I understand "becoming oneself", as a knowledge of what I think that I want and of what I really want and always really wanted.
This way presupposes that I will make many mistakes - and more than this, that I need to make mistakes in order to learn. That I will arrive at a place, the name of which I thought it was different when I sailed. This is how I understand Rilke's warning, that "above all you must never stop having wishes". Any obstacle to our wish, for example, a social custom or a convention, is an opportunity for us to explore the strength and the origin of our will. And sometimes, what seems like just "conventional people", are door keepers waiting precisely for us to enter the inside.
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